Beyond Zero

She wondered what had become of her.
A mute kind of darkness had settled in—numbing her until she felt nothing at all.
No warmth. No glow.
Not even the comfort of tears.
She was buried beneath her own wreckage.
A sorrow too still, too deep, slowly hollowed her out, long after life had taken her color.
Her voice.
Her name.
There might've been a better way to live—but she never learned how.
This isn't where her story began, but it is where it ends—
in a journal she never meant for anyone to read.
Quietly.
Slowly.
Until she was no longer easy to find.

Beyond Zero is told through Lily’s journal entries, capturing the raw reality of living with trauma, depression, and the battle between wanting to stay and wanting to disappear. It’s about the words left unsaid, the connections that tether us even when they fray, and the fleeting joys that keep us moving, even if only for a while. At its core, it explores survival, mental health, friendship, the erosion of identity under trauma—and the search for light even when you no longer know who you are.

Content Warnings: This book contains themes of emotional distress, trauma, mental health struggles, and suicidal thoughts. Reader discretion advised.

Read a Sample from Beyond Zero here